Bleeding Love

  

Sometimes i think love is cruel but people said love is the most powerful things in the world.Someone hurt my heart which makes a huge hole in my heart i wish not to fall in love again but why am i falling in love again? I'm confused with my life.He hurt my heart i can't fall in love again with this condition.But someday i will find the right guy for me ;)

Today was fun.I didn't laugh so much cause i was in bad mood.Mathematics are hard and we called out math teacher Cikgu Bulat cause she likes to circle everything at our book that  is so awkward actually.Eheheh , Science is so AWEHHSOMEEE! Cik Koon is so sporting i love her ! PJK was great i spent most of my time singing and jumping into trees and trees that what we called Arctic Monkeys , ech :P

                          xoxo <3

Now The World Is Quiet

I couldn't forget about him i still in love with him , but why ? is it because i still love him ? i can't do this in everyday of my life its just one thing is to see him talk with him or laugh with him.I just can't i tried but i  just can't forget loving him.That's right when you love someone set it free.How can i set free about my feeling for him its just complicated.I want to forget him and continue my life without thinking about him.But the only thing i know about us is Were Just Friends i hope that will be forever.I wish to see him someday and continue our last long friendship i hope it will be forever.Amin (:

                                                      xoxo <3

About Aqilah

It's started when the first day of schl 2010.I just can't forget when we talks about Twilight were like so exited eclipse coming out.It turns great day and day were like best pal and nadia , aqilah and me always sticks together were like siblings.Thing started to change after we were being apart by different classes and our schl kind a moved out to new schl and we were like so happy cause were in the same clss again and someone likes her and tht person was someone that i fall in love.After that nadia move to Pulau Pinang that makes us sadder i just couldn't forget what she said to us.


Thing started to change when this ZUL guy kept posting love quotes at his facebook status and it is this :

love hurts me again
love makes me cry again
love leaves me,
telling me to forget all the loved memories
my heart cannot be repaired, it hurts so much

That's hurting aqilah so much and i know it's not for me but it's for aqilah i said to her Terimalah Dia sebagai boyfriend kau but she doesn't want i'm not forcing her to love.

Now she's unhappyl.You guys mybe won't believe me but his boyfriend died on 1 Febuari 2011 he had ilness and that is brain cancer it's hard for her.Why does this happened to her not me.I don't want her to be sad the only thing i want is her to be happy forever i don't want her to gave up on her life i don't want anything to hurt her cause i love her so much although were just friends.I don't want her to risk her life by crying everyday.I regret everything that i'd ever said to her that made her so mad.She doesn't deserve this and i doubt that i really deserved this.I rather have brain cancer but not her boyfriend , cause i know somehow his boyfriend can cheer her up.But please Aqilah don't do stupid thing to be with him although you love him so much.And somehow i know he wants you to be happy..

Lights Off

 

Gawh! I've haven't posted anything since the last day i opened this thingy.Anyways schools is just the same.Homeworks alot.12:25 i don't know what to post about EKEKEKEKEKEKE :DD

                                 xoxo <3

I Will Jump Of A Cliff For You

 

                      

I miss you so much.Everytime i saw your bus and everytime i searched for you but i still don't see you.It hurts by forgetting you but i tried to stop loving you but i just can't , i do not know why.I tried it just can't.I miss him a lot in a few of boys i fall for i never missed them so badly but he's diffrent.I think i expect to much from him.Anyway i really wanna see you someday.

                                                      xoxo <3

School And Sick Kids

Tomorrow is the first day of school again.Haish , more homeworks , more books.I hope that school isn't that bad hah.I wish to see him but guess again i can't he goes to Saas and i goes to Jalan Bukit its like far away and i'm not going tuition with him anymore i'm going to my neighbor's class tuition.Please i don't want to go to my neighbor's.ALLAH please i'm begging you please do some miracle for it.I just wanted to see him every day of my life that's only the medicine for me.Just please he is for aqilah not for me.

                Wish me luck for first day of schl xoxo <3

Lykke Li - Paris Blue

My Heart , My Soul

                                                  From left : Baby , Ayah , Saya , Umi.
                               It Is suppose to be 7 of us but Kak Ida or Kak Kina is taking our picture
                                          You guys might be asking why are we looking back 
                              We saw this little girl.She is so cute and she is chasing her unfloating ballon   
                                                     Taht was our best day ever <3

 

                                     From Up There : Me , Baby , Kak Kinah , Ila , Angah , Kak ida
                                                   The Best Day Ever !
                                                        
                                                                   XOXO <3

My Freakin' Self

• Siti Syafiqah Kamaruddin <3                                      
• 13 Years old                                                     
• 11 January 1998 <3                                               
• I want to be a veternarian <3                                    
• Chocolate Please ? <3                                            
• Nak tau pasal Saya tanya dekat Pesbuk okay ?                     
• Kalau nak carik saya dekat pesbuk ini email ; Sya_ika94@yahoo.com

XOXO <3

Registration Day

  

Okay dalam BM pulak.Pagi buta dah bangun mandi semua pastu pukul 08:01 pastu sampai pukul bape tah.Dah sampai sekolah amik nombor giliran pastu kene isi Kad Check Gigi dah habis isi mende tu duduk kat Dataran Ilmu tunggu2 sampai cikgu habis cakap aku pun apalagilah duk mencari2 kwn sekolah rendah.Tetiba dah boleh buat registration banyaklah jgak orang belum complete kan borang tu rasa cam 'Babi lah pulak makcik ni baru nk isi borang !' dekat rumah bukan nak isi tak ke macam menyusahkan cikgu kat sana.Haish ,tetiba dah giliran aku cikgu pun carik nama aku tetiba tak jumpa pastu dia tanya cikgu sebelah dia pastu ada nama aku.Aku pulak ape lagi dah mcm kelang kabut kene marah ngan ayah.Lepas tu amik balik nombor giliran dapat pulak nombor yg ke-13 aku dh cam 'err tak lama lah pulak menunggu mende alah ni' tunggu jelah.Sebelum buat registration tu aku sakit perut tandas dia jauh aku mntk pengawas suruh tunjuk tempat tu jauh lah jgak tnds ni haish , tetiba surrounding jadi jam hitam2 pudar rasa cam nk pitam dah smpai toilet aku pun  melepas lepas dah habis aku tgk kat cermin sambil basuh tangan tetiba aku tengok bibir yg ke-dua(taktau nak ckp)jadi putih aku lg lah trkejut berok! nasib baik kakak yang bawak aku tu tak tanya sabar jelah.Dah habis registration aku sebernanya nak pegi Ali Stor sebab nak beli tudung hitam sekolah malas aku nk pakai tudung Ekin tu ngan tudung Lilit tetiba cam malas nak ajak ayah.Biar jelah nnt boleh beli.  

                            xoxo <3

Little Bit

Now i know why you did it.Just one thing i really2 mean it please take care of her don't ever hurt her or leave her.Although you only accept me as a friend.Ok guys here is the storie.

One day when my first time at my tuition class.That day i met him my heart was beating so fast.Then i went home i realised something i fell in love with him i think about it all night.He becamed my best pal although he didn't know i liked him a lot.One day i told my friend that i loved him.While she was at Primary School but were not the same school she was talking with him and other friends they're are playing 'Congkak' she talk about me to him what do i like and dislike.When she was talking with him she accidently said that i loved him.He knew it for quiet a long time but she didn't tell me about it.After a months passing through i started to realised that he started to paying attention at my friend.But she didn't realised it each and everyday he always wanna talk about my friend and everyone in school thought that they were in love with each other but thy wouldn't admit it.One day it was 24-11-2010.He buzz me on Facebook.So he started to say about my friend.I ask him a question 'Kau suka kat sape ?'He told me i was my bestfriend i ask him again all of my friends is my bestfriends and he told me you were close with them and started to said 'Nadia , Aqilah ?' he said Yes.I ask him again 'Kau suka kat Aqilah kan ?'and then he said 'Ketara sangat ke yang aku suka kat dia'.I started crying and the he ask me a question 'Syafiqah kau suka kat aku kan ?' i was beng quiet for awhile and he ask me again 'Syafiqah jawab soalan aku'i was crying so badly and finally i said 'Yes' he said sorry because he can't love me.I said it's okay it's not your fault.Until then i was being silent infront of hime and when he IM me.I'm not ignoring him i just can't control my feelings it's like a someone punch my at my heart and i can't fall in love again.But he did said one word that was meaningful to me he said 'Kita boleh jadi kawan lagi kan ? then i said of course we will still be friends although he doesn't know it hurts a lot.

                     xoxo <3

Esok Pendaftaran Sekolah Menengah

31.12.10 . pendaftaran sekolah menengah . haish , harap2 bdak2 kat sana best and teachers too..kenapa tak dapat SAAS ! why Jln Bukit  jgak . ARGHHHH ! 

                     GUYS WISH ME LUCK , XOXO <3